(freshen up) the warmth of the sun deepens this moment into being.

around my room i place objects.

talismanic notions of grounding.

in the corner the tulips thirsty burst a delicate wilt as a reminder of transiting beauty.

‘being beautiful is not enough’ Molly Prentiss Tuesday Nights in 1980 .

perforated edges & the eyeroll. living across three time zones. i look sometimes with obsession at myself. appearances signalling = CELLULAR. [[SILENCE IS A LANGUAGE]].

If the brain is a receptor (Peter C. Whybrow MD) then during this experiment (the residency) as we continue to pare back, open to us are other inputs. Every moment is a moment of creativity in action. Stepping away from the manic white noise anxiety [ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS].

self-governance as a radical act. How to you know me? How many times a day do you touch your phone? Tracking memory. The body is a map. Let me read you. NEWSFEED.

Rosy flush. Up the hill. down the hill. YOU ARE A RESEARCH PROJECT. SUBJECT. SUBJECTIVE THINKING.

HOME MAKER/HOME BUILDER = gendered references to cities and the domicile. hammers and nails. platforms and methodologies.

it doesn’t matter what time it is as there is only here. frosty envelop.

[PRIMITIVE] = impulse of primitive mark making. energy fields and being ‘fed’ by the landscape. from a meditative mind, let the thoughts pass by. (the rest of my life is in the preparation of death). the snow is coming back as sideways swirl outside my window.

the world reverbs the new zealand attack on the mosque and the people killed, the after effects. here we are blanketed in the Finnish winter, the silence absolute and resolute.

people will arrive home soon, bursting into the house bringing the needles of outside cold to bristle and rise.

in my room small piles of books. eloquently placed as reminders of future action.

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